June 5, 2010

My Secret

My friends seem to know me as a fairly blunt (but I would hope tactful) type A, outgoing, slightly scatter-brained, confidant woman but the truth is I'm terribly insecure and completely afraid of confrontation. So, there it is, my secret. I don't even like telling the waitress when my food is bad, I make Joshua do it for me. I'm sure I'm not the only one but this little adventure known as the military has forced me to do things that are so far outside of my comfort zone, they scare me. I hate it. I hate that Joshua's not here. I hate that when stuff comes up, I'm the only one who can deal with it because I'm the only adult home. I found myself hiding in the bathroom crying this morning because I didn't want the boy to see me. I love my traditional marriage. I love that my husband takes care of me. I miss it.
Ok. Pitty party over. I have to go deal with two car dealerships and O'rileys now. Ugh.

2 comments:

Kayla Sue said...

I am there with you! I HATE telling the waitress my food is bad, and usually don't!

The military is super intimidating...but it gets better.

Brianna Renee said...

Thanks-it's nice to know I'm not the only one and it's good to know that it won't always be this intimidating. It's so humbling to be this intimidated when I'm 27 yrs old!