When I was a child, I preferred to eat and talk with adults rather than other children. When I was a teenager, I was lost. I didn't understand teens around me...the things they obsessed over and did for fun. Don't get me wrong, I was a stupid teen like most others and did (and wore) ridiculous things to fit in sometimes but I didn't actually want to. Then, in college, I never really got into the party, club-hopping, dating-around scene (apart from about six months after I turned 21 which was more than long enough for me to realize it wasn't my thing).
My 20's often felt like they were filled with "supposed to's"...like I was supposed to want a career and a higher college degree because I'm a "modern woman" and getting married at 22 was not what I was supposed to do. I was supposed to want to "have a life" before I had children of my own. I still remember telling one of my brother's that I was pregnant with my son (just before I turned 25) and his 30-year old response was "WHY?!" Granted, he grew up in California and I grew up in the mid-west so there are some socio-geographic influences. But, I always felt like I was supposed to act young because I was young.
Turning 30 has come with a new found sense of freedom. I'm not old and I still have an active lifestyle but I don't have to act young. I can prefer to stay home and drink wine while playing a board game with my family. I can take a ceramics or a painting class with women twice my age and have a great time-not going to lie, some of those old birds are a little naughty!
I still want to look and feel 20-pretty sure that's one wish that won't change for a while, but I'm so glad I'm 30 now.
PS>Sorry if it's TMI but I went to the Dr yesterday and I have shingles. I guess there is a downside to getting older.