September 6, 2012

Taking a Time Out

This week has been insane. I've meant to do a Disney post but in getting us ready for our trip and having two sick kids (ear infections/allergies-happens the week before we go on vacation EVERY time), it just hasn't happened. But then in the midst of my packing frustrations, I got a phone call from a heart-broken friend that reminded me to slow down and be thankful. She and her husband have been trying for a long time to have a child of their own. If you've followed me for a while (or are a friend in real life) you know that we never struggled to get pregnant, our struggles always came with staying pregnant. It was a hard road, even when it was successful. Multiple miscarriages slowly ripped me apart. Once our son was born, I thought it was all in the past but then it happened again. 

I'll never forget that pain but sometimes in the busyness of life, I forget to be thankful that I am a Mom-we survived our own struggles with infertility. I know some people think that desiring to be a Mom isn't enough and that's fine. They should do all they can to live their dreams-whatever they may be but for me, the one thing I wanted most in this world was to have a family of my own.

Five years ago, I was frightened, pregnant for the third time after two miscarriages. We finally had a successful, albeit far from easy, pregnancy. And if we hadn't, another door would have opened. I can see that now. We would have found a way to have children and that's exactly what my friend and her husband are doing. Finding another way.

I don't know what our family will look like in another five years...if we'll try again (despite the emotional and health risks that exist) or if we'll pursue adoption and if so, what that route will look like but I do know that whatever obstacles we face, we'll get through it. Infertility and miscarriages have a way of either tearing a couple apart or binding them together stronger than before...kind of like deployment, actually. Joshua has been by my side (even when he was 7,000 miles away). He's my best friend and we have the two cutest kids. Ever. (I apologize to all other parents but seriously-they're super cute).


Jen said...

I am so sorry for your friend and sorry that you had to endure loss as well. Yes, your children are absolutely adorable! ;)

Cassidy said...

You've inherited a new follower. Stopping by after seeing your post on 'A boy, A Girl, and the Marine Corps.